Francis

Dahil madaming na-"sad" sa Foreigner hence I decided to share na rin this story. 

As you already know I used to frequent mIRC during my early 20's plus I have no qualms meeting new people. Why? I dunno. Sometimes it's the initial flirtation that leads to excitement especially habang papalapit na yung EB day. Another (and medyo weird ito) is I like finding ways of exploring "new" places. Napakadali kong ka-meet kse usually hindi sa lugar ko but typically where the guy is. Gusto ko rin kasi then I was at the stage of continuosly expanding my circle of friends so the more people I meet, the more fun parties then were. And of course, a little percentage is if the guy I was going to meet is a catch e di wow, a huge bonus for me, right? 

So a typical early evening for me and my friends (who also chat religiously then) especially on a lazy Saturday would be to scour Undernet in our favorite channels: #alabang, #admu, #ateneo, #dlsu, #up, #edad25up, #filipino to name a few. I always get "lucky" sa #Alabang. Remember the model with the battery? Dito ko rin yata sya nakilala e plus another one who used to visit me after attending rave parties and bring me munchies and we would just talk and talk until mawala tama nya. I wasn't as 'brave' then so this after party guy didn't get any advances from me. Sayang. I think I was also cautious too coz medyo kasama cya sa close circle my Dad and his grandfather are both part of. Mahirap na 

Anyhoo, that night, my bestie (who's also from the South) and I were just YM-ing waiting for someone to meet. lol. Boring pag kami lang. Taga-South kami but our favorite bar then was El Pueblo in Ortigas to the point na kilala na kami dun at pag puno na suddenly there'll be a table for us. Sadly, some of the waiters thought we were playing with the guys kse nga they would see us with various guy and girl friends. Insert Eve's song (Got What You Need)LOL. So medyo "matumal" that night until I see his nick. Yelong lalaki ang literal na translation (miss neville, sana tama ;p) so I bravely PM'd him. 

   me: Hi there! How's your Saturday doing? 

     F: A bit slow. I'm baby-sitting. (my heart sank. f#&k, may anak)

  me: Aww, your kids? (I HAD to know ;p)

    F: My older sister's

  me: Oh. (yes, single!) Am I distracting you from your baby-sitting chores then?

    F: No it's okay. You're such a welcome and refreshing distraction :-) 

  me: (aba, he's doing MY moves on me!) Is that so? *winks*

  

Let's call him, as you already know, "Francis." Unfortunately, Francis and I did not meet that night. We did however continue our conversation over the phone and SMS. Syempre, career mode na ako coz after swapping Friendster (yes, may FS pa noon) and My Space info. I thought, syet jackpot na naman. lol. He's a swimmer so panalo ang katawan and he's tall enough (5'10) plus he is smart. I thought to myself: ano kaya catch... Hmm..There must be. No one can be this cool. 

That same week, Francis and I both agreed to meet after work. We both work in Makati and both decided to meet at a Starbucks place within Chino Roces area. I was very nervous coz I really want him to like me kasi nga pogi e. Yes, I was that shallow then. No judgement. Yung iba nga dito until now shallow pa din e. hahaha. I hate coming in late atsaka strategy ko rin yun para maka-pwesto discreetly although di ko naman plano i-one way ito. It was also my way of 'preparing' myself which I don't really like since I am just an eyeliner and lip gloss type of woman. Konting suklay then good to go na ako hehehe. Baduy ba? Pero that day, konting face powder and special perfume (yung may gayuma! hahaha joke). 

Meeting time was at 6pm. Medyo dumarami na rin ang tao nun sa lugar so I thought buti na lang dumating ako nang maaga and got a nice enough spot. So gaya ng dati kong style, basa-basa muna pero not fashion magazines kse a cool girl dapat may subscription na nun (haha) so I was reading a newspaper para kunwari smart ang peg lol. Yes, mababaw talaga ako but I don't f#&king care what you think hahaha. Peace 

Then pumasok cya. Syet. Ang tikas ng tayo nya. Naka-office look na hindi barong ha (you know what I mean ). Naka-shades pa. (Naisip ko wala ng araw pero sige ignore na lang yung thought na yun hahaha). Yes, yummy-looking si Francis. And I thought siya na si forever ko.  Our eyes met and I got wet. Syempre hindi pa pero slight yata meron hahaha. 

He went to where I was and said hello. I stood up and he extended his hand, "Francis". I said, "Saint". Saint Francis lang ang peg namin. hahaha. Of course I said my name. His hand was firm yet soft. I was thinking, there must be something wrong --- I cannot be infatuated with a perfect man! He placed his bag on the seat and asked if there's anything else I wanted. Sabi ko, nope I'm good. Pero I wanted to scream, "you! I want you now!" Pero syempre hindi ko sinabi. So bumalik cya and then we talked about common things we've chatted about pero in detail na: the South, where he graduated from, his course, my course, my school, his work, my work, family, to name a few.INTERESTINGLY, no mention of any girlfriend. This guy cannot be single, I thought. It just does not happen. 

So I started talking about that topic. I asked him if it's okay to ask some personal questions. He looked at me, smiled, and replied, "of course." I swear para akong naihi sa tingin nya! So I asked the gf question and he said, medyo cool off sila. Syempre hindi ako naniwala. Susme naman, ano ako 15?! LOL. So I just pretended to understand and act sympathetic pero in my mind I was like, "yun ang wrong sa kanya!" After the coffee, he said sabay na tayo uwi. Sabi ko, cge. Coding ako that day so commute kami. Buti na lang marunong cya hahaha. Anyhoo, tabi kami sa bus at HH na rin kme. So kinilig naman ako. By the way, he smokes so medyo manilaw yung ngipin nya. Naalala ko lang just now so yun lang yung medyo di ko gusto. So we finally reached our destination and had dinner then parted ways. Parang BFE na rin that night. He even asked when kami ulit magkikita. So I said maybe this weekend? He said okay. Aside from HH, isang quick peck sa cheek lang ang meron so nung time na yun I thought wow pang-BF material yata ito then I remembered yung "cool off" story so I reminded myself not to be so trusting.

That Saturday nagkita kme sa ATC. He came from Laguna where his parents live. That day, pareho kaming may dalang kotse. Mine had the manyak tint, of course.  MyEX bf was also from the South and I know that he brings his kid to ATC every Saturday so I told Francis if pwede sa kotse na lang muna kami mag-usap or we go somewhere else. He said, cge. Since my car was the more heavily tinted one, yun ang dinala namin and he drove, of course. We went to the 'other bigger mall' near ATC. He drove with such ease and familiarity of where to park that made me think na sanay na ito. He went down and asked if I wanted something to eat; sabi ko cge grab anything lang and a drink please. So sabi nya, okay. I then looked at my car and tried to "clean" the back area. I also made sure I smell fresher. I even went as far as to check if I wore nice undies that day. And I did.  

So bumalik cya bearing food. Yay. We listened to music and then started eating. He asked me how the rest of my week was although he already knew naman kasi after the 1st meeting e nagte-txt at nag-uusap pa rin kme. He remained a gentleman all those time but I needed to check and test whether this will lead into something romantic or sexy time lang. 

Nag-usap na kme about crazy things we have done in the past. Syempre that was not limited to wholesome things. So he said that nung college sya he had his first of threesome: kambal pa yung girls. Teammates nya sa swim team. OMG. Kaloka ang story nya at syempre nainggit ako and thought I'll do that soon (but of course ibang story yun). Nung time na yun wala pa naman ako masyadong experience so sabi ko pretty much did it with guys I had relationships with. Tapos tumingin cya sa akin. Tapos na kaming kumain nito and pretty much placed our trash sa likod to dispose later. 

He then held my hand and started tracing my fingers. He said, "you have such a smaller than the usual hand 'no?" I nodded quietly, enjoying his warm touch on my hand and trying not to look affected but deep inside I already was. Then his other hand touched my face and just as I dreamed of, we kissed. 

*sparks* *boom* *fireworks* hahaha 

May spark. syet. Nung una, soft kisses until slowly lumalalim at mas nagiging urgent ang mga halik nya. Yung dila nya was expertly teasing mine. His tongue was sweet but with a tinge of salt coz of the fries he had earlier. Nonetheless, sarap. Ang sarap nya halikan. We continued kissing until we both had to stop and breathe. I uttered, "wow." And he said, masarap ba? Tumango at ngumiti lang ako. Then before I knew it, we were kissing again --- this time he was more urgent and a bit more forceful. Rougher than before but I kind of like it. Then naramdaman ko na parang iba na yung hawak nung isa nyang kamay and I had to stop it. He then stopped and said, "sorry". Sabi ko, I just haven't done this before. syempre I have pero not in that mall  so gusto ko lang din i-compose yung sarili ko, stall time, and get confirmation from whether it is a safe place and we won't be caught or what. He said, yes it is safe. I have done it before. Ooopps huli ka balbon, I thought. hahaha. 

So nag-kiss ulit kami at heavy petting which left both of us bitin. 

Pero I thought okay lang yan at least na-kiss ko cya. We then went back to ATC and he got off and we said goodbye. 

I dunno what I am getting myself into but it was clearly not the true relationship I hoped for...

To be honest, clueless na ako sa status namin ni Francis pero I think it was pretty clear na 1) cool off pa rin sila ni gf nya so pwedeng maging sila pa rin ulit soon; 2) he likes me pero not the way I like him; 3) may gusto cyang mangyari sa amin but he can't verbalize it.

After the parking incident, medyo lay low muna ako sa pag-reply kay Francis. During this time, baguhan pa lamang ako sa mga laru-laro e. Although aware ako sa mga pangyayari na one night stands at f#&k buddies e a part of me was still secretly hoping that he likes me --- really likes me. 

Francis called me and asked me why I have not been responding to his messaged. I told him naging busy lang ako maski hindi. I just cannot tell him that I have to stay away from him coz what he wants seems to be different from what I want. But he sensed it. He asked me if we'd like to meet over coffee the following day, after work ulit. So I said, okay. 

I called my best friend and told her that we're meeting the following day. 

The following day, I took extra care to make sure I wear something nicer than the usual. Even my office mates noticed but I just told them I had an interview in another job after. 

Francis came in earlier than the last time although nauna pa rin ako. When I saw him, napa-buntong hininga na naman ako sa ka-guapohan nya. He asked me which beverage I was having and bought our drinks. So small talk ulit about work and non-essentials. 

Then he finally spoke. He said, "ano ba sa tingin mo meron tayo" to which my only reply was me blushing profusely, I bet.  I told him wala but I had to say that I was hoping there can be more. And that's when it slowly and gradually went downhill, at least from my perspective. Sabi nya, "I like you but I..." hindi ko na pinakinggan yung mga iba nyang sinabi kasi parang maiiyak na ako. I like you but... blah blah blah. Bits of what I heard was coz he was still hopeful magre-recon sila ni gf etc. I politely and hurriedly told him I had to leave. I thanked him for coffee, went to the parking, and drove away. 

That was the last time I'd see Francis. 

Or so I thought...

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Lahat naman siguro tayo dumaan na sa masakit at masaklap na phase ng buhay like rejection. Sakit di ba? Di naman ako naglaslas `no pero nag-senti mode ako for 3 days. I was that naïve thinking that our kiss sa parking lot actually meant something. Haha. You have to admit some of you can relate, well, at least yung ibang women, or perhaps even men. 

After that Francis incident e I chose not to go online in mIRC for a few weeks. Susme ang bruha (that's me) talagang affected. Ang lalaki? Deadma. Syempre nung nauntog na ako ay natatawa na lang ako when I think of it but then it was a big deal for me. I'm sure some can very much relate to it. 

I thought long and hard what was it about Francis that seemed to have me fascinated and curious. It probably was because I think there was something there. Obviously, nothing but my naive, younger self failed to see that. 

When I seemed okay na, I finally replied to Francis' message in YM. He seemed nice and sincere naman in asking how I have been. Then it dawned on me that while I was sulking and moping coz of "broken heart" e parang wala naman sa kanya. In short, deadma lang cya. That's when I thought that why would I waste my time over someone who doesn't care. Parang doon na rin ako nagsimula magkaroon ng Pinai 2.0. I thought to myself: no need to waste my time over someone who clearly doesn't give a damn. If you can't beat them, join them. 

So pag tuwing malambing cya e ako din. Kunwari totoo na sweet ako etc. I think he fell for it coz he invited me to meet with him. 

I thought to myself, "aba, dapat pala ganito ginawa ko dati pa". 

We met on Dec 30. For some weird reason, naalala ko pa yung day coz I had to do errands in the morning for my folks. I did not bring a car that day. I took a relatively long commute and waited for him at Festival Mall. I have never been to that mall para lumibot. Now that I think of it, medyo weird. Anyway, we agreed to meet around 2pm. I was there early, 1:45pm so syempre washroom check muna: nakalugay na hair (mabango but not tipong that day lang gumamit ng shampoo ), check; 'cute' and casual porma (tipong umeffort but not too much at mag-feeling cya), check; hint of perfume but not to the point na parang hypnotizing, check; newly-shaved_____ bigote (hahaha jk), check. So I confidently stepped out of the washroom and proceeded to our meeting place. 

Then I saw him. Medyo may kilig pero I had to remind myself not to let him see nor feel anything. Cool lang dapat; parang wala lang. Konting kilig lang naman use yummy pa in cya: walking towards me with his sweet smile and yummy body, oblivious of the looks from other women. Then just like that, I thought to myself, if he cannot be my special someone then I might as well make sure I get as much of him as I can, when I can. He made beso to me. I smelled a hint of sporty musky perfume --- lalaking-lalaki na naman. Sa isip ko, "damn, this guy wants to f#&k and be f#&ked." He asked, "kumain ka na?" Sabi ko, "had breakfast" then he just nodded then replied, "sige, let's just eat inside." There were no questions asked. It was as if he knew in his mind what was to happen without asking me. And the funny thing is, I wanted it too. I just did not say it. 

We went outside the mall and walked towards the jeepney terminal. He was holding my hand so ako naman medyo may kilig but I know better than to show it. So parang casual at usual lang pero deep inside medyo may slight kiligers. 

Then we crossed to the other side. Those people from the South already know what I'm talking about. It was starting then as one of the "alternative" chain for short time stay. So go na kami dun sa place na yun. I'm sure you saw what I did there  It was my first time to do walk in and it was very embarrassing. Guys reading this, PLEASE parang awa nyo na, DO NOT DO it! hahaha

So thankfully, we didn't have to wait too long. It didn't help that the receptionist seemed to have the hots for Francis. Not that I blame her pero I gave her a stare long enough to make her glance the other way. Kunwari bf ko  na lang si Francis lang peg ko nun. I wouldn't mind after all especially since I had the hots for him before. So off we went. In fairness, his hand was still clutching mine. 

Then finally nasa room na kami. It's a little bit more than I expected. It was clean and a bit bigger than what I had in mind. The mirror (which seemed to be a staple in places like these) was just on the side. I inwardly smiled. I then went to the bathroom and it looked and smelled clean. But na lang I almost bring toiletry coz you never know with these places. I then peed and stepped out. Francis looked up (he was sitting at the side of the bed and getting undressed) and smiled at me. As soon as he was only wearing his boyleg undies (pang-model talaga itong mokong na ito; ang TO lang sa kanya ay yung ngipin nya), he stood up then hugged and kissed me. 

His kiss was dry at first. His lips were dry maybe coz of too much of him smoking? I wouldn't know actually. Then I slightly and maybe consciously (or not) quickly licked my lips then his. I slowly teased his tongue by inserting a portion of my tongue inside his. He immediately responded by allowing my tongue entry inside. Hmm, I'm in. I can taste more of him and so far I like what I was tasting. Palalim nang palalim lang halikan namin. I can feel his hands slowly moving towards my breasts. He then paused and swiftly took my top off. I didn't even fight it off. I felt his hands cup my breasts. His left thumb was leisurely playing with my right nipple. I felt it get hard. He did the same with his right thumb to my left nips. Auto-effect naman ang making body parts... Susme, di man lang nag-control. LOL. Then he slowly guided me to sit at the side of the bed. He took off his undies and then sat beside me. He then propped himself to the bed and signalled me to stay beside him. Para akong robot at sumunod na lang. Then we continued where we left off. We kissed and kissed while his fingers expertly played with my breasts. Then his other hand decided to explore something else. He then asked me to take off my jeans to which I obliged. I then felt his fingers "searching" for my v. It was already starting to get wet and got wetter when he inserted one of his fingers inside. It got wetter again we simultaneously played with my clit with another (or was it two) finger/s while the other one goes in and out of me. And he was still kissing me! Ang lalaki nga naman oo -- pag horny, any form of multi-tasking seems possible. 

Everything that came next was a blur. He removed my undies, making us both naked. Dimmed the lights. And then went on top of me. We changed positions as if I was the then-popular Jenna Jameson and him the porn Italian stud (forgot his name). We went from missionary to WOT to me doing GoodSPREAD then finishing with Doggy --- all in our first round. We were both spent and I was scared that the condom was broken after all the position-changing. The second round was spent all in the bathroom and he came all over my tits. 

We then cleaned and lathered ourselves up and went back to the bedroom. We then fell asleep. I was snoozing off when I felt uneasy at my v area. I sleepily glanced down and was not surprised to see Francis eating me. He was licking and nibbling on my pussy. Ang sarap. I just closed my eyes and let the sensation overcome me. Then he stopped and I hear him open the condom pack again and before I can move, he is inside me again. He was pumping me  with such gusto I can see it in his face. And it turned me on so somehow I slowly positioned myself na magkaharap kami and we continued pleasing each other. I then asked him to lie on the bed and I then did reverse cowgirl on him and I felt him relax and just let me be in control. I was so engrossed on finding the right pace of me pumping him that I wasn't too aware of how it was affecting him. As I was about to cum, I heard him moan my name and I felt him breathe raggedly. Nag-cum na cya and I followed...

*** Francis and I did the deed for about three more times after this day. He made it very clear that it was not a relationship so ako chill lang. Right about the same time I was seeing him, a friend who was into photography before introduced me to a friend of hers. He and I were dating as I was seeing Francis on a not-so-regular basis. I didn't see anything wrong with that coz hindi nga kami "serious" di ba. What ended Francis and I's thing however was when he checked my phone (remember the Motorola Razr Pink phone --- so cute!) and saw my video giving head to a guy --- not him. I just looked at him and said, "di ba we are not serious?!" got dressed and left him at theMOTEL. 

★ Piper ★